I am in the process of moving my website to my friend Christine's server. Christine has been kind enough to allow my little website some space, which saves me about $300 a year. She is very cool for doing this, and I owe her many pastries in return!

My email is still down right now, so please use the comments or forums for the interim.

Let me just start out saying that my friend Christine rocks da house! I thought that I was a totally looser for not knowing how to start up my shoutcast server. Christine totally helped me and it only took like 5 minutes! So if you click on the link, you'll notice that there is no more Live365...it's on a dedicated server. No more crashes, just good tunes!

Christine is also going to hook me up on her server for this website so I can help reduce costs. I know that I was paying way too much, but I was too lazy to move it :) She's doing everything for me...I so owe her lunch and dinners for months!

Thanks Christine!

I have been friends with Meghan since high school. We met when she was dating Joey during her Juinor year, I had already graduated. Meghan was the girl that Joey had the biggest crush on since the 8th grade. He was so into her, Meghan this, Meghan that...etc. Meghan and I became really good friends right away. It's funny when you think about it. We totally remember the attitude we gave about meeting each other for the first time. And look at where we are at now 13, almost 14 years later.

There was a period of time, not too long ago, when Meghan and I did not talk 10 times a day. I like to call it my "in between" years. It lasted almost 4 years. It was probably the saddest time of my life. I don't have many girlfriends like Meghan, and when you loose one over a misunderstanding it hurts. I was depressed for a long time. I didn't think I would ever survive such a pain.

We don't really talk about the time "in between". Every now and then something will come up about something that happened during that time, but for the most part Meghan doesn't know how sad I was, and I don't really know if she was sad either. We talk almost everyday now, several times a day sometimes.

I'm that Meghan and I are friends again. I think she feels the same. We think alike, and we could talk for hours and never get bored. When I have a friend like Meghan, who has room for the fake ones?

I guess it's only natural that I really miss my Daddy today. I have these patterns that I have followed throughout my life. Like when I drive to my second job, I usually call my Dad along the way. I still reach for the phone everytime. For today, I normally call my Dad on Thrs...see my dad used to go out of town without telling me on the weekends, or he refused to take my calls on the weekends. So I just got into the habit of calling on Thrs. I can't do that anymore. I may still reach for the phone, but I can't hear his voice on the other end.

To my dear Daddy, I still remember you on this day as I do everyday since you left. Even though you couldn't tell me when I needed it the most, I know that you loved me. I love you too Daddy.

This is for everyone who plays There.

I know that many Thereites read this website, so maybe my word can get heard here without fear of having it censored on forums.

The There Mafia sucks. The group is way too serious. There is ONLY A GAME PEOPLE!That's it a game. I don't support the Mafia at all, I may support individuals who take part in the Mafia. I went to a Mafia recruiting party when I was a nOOb, I was just learning the game and the community, I admit that I didn't know any better. The discussion was pretty hardcore, and it freaked me out. It was a really creepy experience, and I really conisdered leaving There because of it. I felt pressured to join the Mafia, and if I did anything to that went against their beliefs I would be considered an outcast in the There community.

So far, I haven't had too much of a problem, but a very good friend of mine is however. People are putting him on ignore just because he voices his opinion. Last time I checked people, this was America, and we have the right to say what we feel. When we take that right or punish people for saying what they believe, even in an online simulation like There, it makes the whole game go downhill, and it becomes something dark.

The whole idea of There was to have fun. The There Mafia has made it anything but fun now.

If you don't like what I have to say, too bad. This is my website, you can't delete it. You can put me on ignore, boycott my radio station, I don't care. All I have to say to that is FUCK YOU! As for the There Mafia, pick on someone your own size for once.

1. What's one thing you've always wanted to do, but never have?
leave my job without notice and do something that I love.

2. When someone asks your opinion about a new haircut/outfit/etc, are you always honest?
Yes, too honest at times.

3. Have you ever found out something about a friend and then wished you hadn't? What happened?
No. I've been friends with my crew way too long now to have secrets

4. If you could live in any fictional world (from a book/movie/game/etc.) which would it be and why?
Down with Love, I love that whole era...so cool..so funky.

5. What's one talent/skill you don't have but always wanted?
Being able to work with wood, and making furniture.

I just wanted to say hello to my friend Brian from work. He cracked me up at work today. Out of no where he turns around and asks who the guy was in high school (see "I love the way he leans" entry). At first I was lost, then it hits me that he has been reading my website at work. Totally funny!

Thanks Brian for stopping by. I'm glad my little website was able to make your day a little bit less boring.

So it's been about 4 months since I spoke to Joey. I miss him sometimes. Like right now, I'm totally bored, and I want to go to the record store. I know I can go by myself, I have no problem with that. But it's just so much better when Joey and I go together. He makes fun of my selections and I make fun of his. That's just what we do.

He hasn't called me in a long time. Apparently he's living with his younger girlfriend, and working at Robinson's in the stock room. Well I hope that he's gotten his life together, and continues to stay clean. The fact that I haven't heard from him makes me think otherwise.

I wonder if he reads my website?

1. How many times have you truly been in love?
Twice, my first love when I was 19 and now.

2. What was/is so great about the person you love(d) the most?
He completes me. He sees my faults and accepts me for who I am. He showed me that I deserved to be loved.

3. What qualities should a significant other have?
Respect, love their mothers, kindness, laughter.

4. Have you ever broken someone's heart?
Not that I have been made aware of.

5. If there was one thing you could teach people about love, what would it be?
Not to take it for granted.

I've been watching the My So Called Life DVD's all week. God I love that show so much.

I had already been out of high school for 5 years when the show came out. I totally remember this guy that I had the biggest crush on. You know one of those crushes on guys that were always way out your reach? He was cool to me, he would tell me stories about his current girlfriend and how he had this crush on another girl for the longest time. My senior year, he became single, and just as I got my nerve up to say something to him, my so called best friend Tauna moved in and asked him out. Apparently she had a huge crush on him too. Luckily it was just one date. I knew she wasn't his type.

God that one beautiful guy in high school. Everyone has one. To see him walk down the hallway would just take my breath away.

I found out today that someone I know was saying mean things about me. This person isn't someone I would consider to be a friend, but the more I think about it, the more bothered I am. I never put up a front that I didn't like this person, I was never mean. I'll be 32 in August, one would think that this sort of two-faced behavior would have stopped when we were 17. I think what bothers me the most is how fake this person has been, and it's like someone shined the maglight in face, "HELLO!" this person is totally transparent now. I never said that I didn't dislike this person. I even let this person borrow DVD's from me. I feel so violated, so naked, I feel like a fool. I am embarassed that I let this fake person hurt me.

I'm addicted to the blogshares game....but dude I am totally disappointed with the fact that I have no incoming links. That basically means that no one links to my little website. That sucks. Even in cyberspace I can't be popular.

So my sister writes this letter to my step-monster's attorney last month about the division of my father's estate, the personal property. I get a letter yesterday from her attorney, here's what it says:

Dear Ms. West (my sister):

I spoke with Mrs. Wilson today regarding the personal property about which you inquired. Mrs. Wilson has been going through Mr. Wilson's personal effects and she has been boxing items, including those acquired by your father before their marriage, for you and your sister to go through. As you might imagine, it is a time consuming and emotional process.

Your May 16 letter sets forth a few dates when you will be available to travel to New River. Mrs. Wilson has asked if the end of August would be acceptable.

Excuse me while I puke! My sister sometimes crosses lines, she's a pot stirrer. She always has been. I hope that everyone knows that I could basically careless about this crap. I just want it to be over with! And what is with this EMOTIONAL crap. Um, excuse me...who is the one still going to the shrink twice a month over this? Step-monster has only had 12 yrs with my father, I have to fix 31 years worth of damage before I spread it to my children. Some acknowledgement from her about my feelings would be nice, but I guess pigs will fly before that ever happens.