I’ve had little spurt of motivation today.  I’m slowly clearing off my craft table and once it’s clean maybe then I’ll have the motivation to actually scrapbook a little.  I still feel like all the scrapbook stuff is out of control in that room.  I still haven’t figured out a good system for storing the embellishments and such.  Everything needs to have a home and right now that’s not happening. 

Tomorrow morning I am going to a wedding dress fitting.  This is after they have done the first round of alterations and to decide on the bustle.  It’s all getting too real.  In six weeks everything will change.  Courtney’s wedding ring has arrived and it’s really nice.  We decided that each of us will pick out the rings and just be surprised.  Although I have given Courtney a few nudges in the right direction.  We are still undecided about the menu for the reception.  One would think that two chef’s could figure something out by now.  I think I’m putting too many expectations on it, it just needs to simple, and reflect us. 

There will be one less guest attending the wedding, which I knew was coming but I had hopes that he would prove me wrong.  Joey has made the decision not to come.  The excuse...because he’s too new at his job and he can’t ask for the time off.  Whatever, that’s all crap.  My family and friends have known about this wedding since last August.  Joey made the choice to remain unemployed all winter and didn’t get a job until just recently.  This was completely in his hands and he had plenty of chances to choose a different path.  This may sound really harsh for those who don’t know the history, but it’s time for me to end this relationship and move on.  There were several emails back and forth and he said that I was stupid for ending the friendship.  It’s been a few weeks and I still feel that it was the best decision for me. This is bigger than just not coming to the wedding.  Joey has consistently let me down as a friend and each time I looked past it.  Not anymore.  I’m done. 

I also decided to get a second job.  I’m freaked out about the state of our economy and I just want to put some extra $$ in the bank for emergencies.  I’ve applied at a couple of places and so far I’ve only had one response, which did not lead to a job.  The wedding conflicted with the training, which totally stinks.  There is one job that I will be really excited to get, and it’s only 1/2 a mile down he road.  Cross your fingers for me!